I Lose MCF (My Close Friend)

It talks about me and one of my friends. I don’t mean to spread widely to the public, but I just want to tell a story. I love to tell stories. May be you can learn from this case. I hope.

We both were ordinary friends in the first 3 years (junior high school) we recognized each other. Then, it changed to be closer when we were in the first class of senior high school. Yeah, we were close. I would not say that she was my crony, soul mate, or whatever it was (because I was not interested having crony -best friend- or certain kind). She was just my friend and she was the closest one with me. I told her everything. I shared her all my happiness even my sadness, I guess. I often brought her what I had, such as foods, goods, yeah. When my brother in law endowed me some foods from other city, I shared mine to her. When my mom was given some fruits by her friend, I also shared mine to her. Ya…just like that.

Wherever I was, she was also there (school area only). I went to shop, she also went to shop. I stayed in the class at break time, she accompanied me. When the teacher ordered the students to make a club (to finish duty stuff), we always wanted to be in the same club. But when teacher decided for the members, we both started worry what if we got different club. That was why, when teacher still thought, both of us begged her to put us in the same club.

“Please, we want to be in the same club, Madam. We suit each other, we can do the duty well together, don’t put me in the different club with her. She is my friend, I am her friend”

When the teacher accepted, then we were so happy. Almost all of teachers agreed with us, yeah! Like once day in the English class, teacher ordered the students to get partner to practice the conversation in front of the class.

“Sir, I suit her. Better we are in the…”

“I know. OK, you may”

“Thank you, Sir”

She admitted that her friend was only me, but I never said that back. She was my good and close friend. That was it. She never IGNORED me. She always CARED me. I was her NUMBER 1 FRIEND. I never IGNORED her. I always CARED her. She was my NUMBER 1 FRIEND. We loved to help each other. When I got trouble, she helped me. When she got problem, I helped her. We just did not want to being separated in the school. We wanted to be always together.  I am sure you know how it was.

After in the 1^st class, then we both sat in the 2^nd class. The problem started to appear. The relationship started to be separated. She met a boy. We made a problem out of little thing. We were mad often. We were so irritable. But, we were still good friend. But, we were as not good as before. She started IGNORING me. She started to STOP CARING me, I guess. I was NOT her NUMBER 1 FRIEND anymore. She never told me her love story because she knew that I would stop her doing it. We knew that having boyfriend/girlfriend in our Islamic Boarding School was really forbidden. But, she did. She did not want to hear me. She chose to make separation with me. She chose the boy and left the friendship. Then, I started NOT to CARING her anymore like she did to me. She was NOT my NUMBER 1 FRIEND anymore. I did NOT CARE her love story. Yeah, I did not know at all about it because I stopped caring her. 

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And now we are sitting in the 3^rd class (nearly to graduation) and I lose MCF. I realize now that I have no close friend like I had before. She is now different. Truly different. I am not as happy as before to know her. We are ordinary friends like first 3 years we recognized. We never being in the same club anymore, and it is okay. We never sit together even to talk anymore. We are not close friend anymore. We are not that close friends.

Actually, we are still good for each other. She sometimes still helps me, so do I. I don’t say that we are not good friends. I just say that we are not close friends. I say that I lose my close friend, not to lose my good friend.

Something really makes me irritated is when I, she, and the boy she loves are being together in the same place. She makes me number 2. And for me, better I lose you than must be the number 2. I just want God drives me to think positively. It means that she does not suit for me. I should go and love myself. Few close friends for an introvert are enough, and introvert will be so loyal. But, when they betray her/him, she/he will leave them forever.

I NEVER GET CRONY, AND I WILL NOT TRY TO GET IT BECAUSE I NEVER WANT IT. JUST BEING FRIEND, THE ORDINARY ONE. THAT’S ENOUGH.

But actually, i do miss that close friend of mine. Do you also miss me?